One of Those Days

Do you ever have one of those days? A day you wish you could start over. A day you wish you could have just never gotten out of bed and instead slept it away. Do you ever have one of those days where nothing seems to go right? Do you ever have one of those days where you feel like you're trying so hard and coming up so short?

I'm having one of those days.....

As is typical with me, one of those days hits when I'm not feeling too well. But in an effort to try hard and get over myself - I get out of bed with a prayer for a right attitude on my tongue. And then it begins: At every turn I am ready with a complaint on my tongue. With every cough is a complaint in my mind of, "I just want to feel better" (its a whiny, annoying voice, but its in my head so no one else has to hear it). I'm too warm in this class, or too cold in this class. Lunch isn't what I'd hoped for. All of these useless complaints that add up to one big bad attitude. And now you are all thinking, "Wow, Sean, just get over yourself!" and I am responding with a big amen! I tell myself to let go of all my issues and know that He's not surprised by any of this. I smile and decide to try to focus on blessing others. And every word off my tongue is heard in a tone that I didn't mean. Every look I give is seen as negative. It's in this moment, on one of these days that I am so thankful for His grace.

I'm so thankful that no matter how hard I try or how easily I give up; no matter how many times I complain or how often I am misunderstand - He is knowingly there. On days when I can do no right, He looks at me and reminds me that He has taken care of it all. He reminds me that when no one else knows how I feel or what I'm thinking - He does. And its on His shoulders of Grace and Love that I stand.

So, when I'm having one of those days I'm reminded that He is still God - period.